Before I dive into this, I think it's safe to say that I'm not exactly an inspirational person. I think I owned one of those posters of the kitten precariously clinging to a branch with the caption "just hang in there" but I'm almost certain I was mocking it from the get-go. However, I can be encouraging on occasion. We'll get to that...
The photos to follow were taken a long enough time ago that I can't really recall when the shoot actually happened. Because of that, I debated ever posting them for the mere fact that I was ashamed it took me so long to completely edit them. Additionally, I was extremely critical of the work. I had hoped for something different. I'm not sure what that "different" entailed but I looked at the photos and immediately began beating myself up. If you want a good example of self-deprecation, just glance in my direction. In any case, I let them sit and gather dust, as I do with many photos.
But now we're here. And I'm posting these photos. And I think I might actually love them.
It's not to say I think they're spectacular and flawless. I see the work that needs to be done and edges that need to be refined. However, the fact that I refused to put them to rest speaks to the concept of perseverance. That's why I love them.
Failure is prevalent. It leaks into every area of our lives, day-in, day-out. We watch as our passions slip out of our fingers and we fall deeper into holes where we can't even reach helping hands. We linger at the thought of what could have been and chock it up to, "I'm obviously supposed to do something else". Because really, we're all just looking for little victories. Something that trumps the massive disappointment. And I think there's more than a few people who would tell me to quit and move on based off of the fact that I haven't had immediate results. Try a decade of perpetual 'not-gonna-happens'.
But for whatever reason, I have this fighting spirit that's suddenly choosing to forget my once very palpable inability to follow-through. This is legitimate perseverance, where giving up just isn't an option. I'm speaking against my insecurities and inconsistencies because THAT is not actually me. And as far as I'm concerned, THAT is not who anyone is supposed to be. So I had over ten years of obstacles and mountains and vertical climbs. So what? And I haven't technically made my way over or under or through them. So what? Should I stop fighting? I think not.
So persevere my little sloth buddies. Move at your pace. Validate your failures, both past and present and pick yourself back up. You're made for this.
Also, look at these photos. Because my friend is really pretty.
One day, I will expound upon modesty in photography. For right now, embrace the censor box.